This painting was a surprising struggle. I tried to film myself for the first few days, but the files were corrupted and destroyed.
I went through so many layers on this painting; at one point it was very colorful, then green, then blue, then red, then black! I finally got so frustrated with the composition I cut the painting into 3 inch squares and rearranged them in a new order, painted them gold, and collaged delicate tissue leaves on top.
The final result is something I am quite happy with, but it was quite a battle getting there. Often on these larger abstract works (like this and this) I feel like I am in a battle, fighting the materials and composition. It occupies my every thought and affects my mood until I can bring resolution to the work. Once the torrent inside me begins to subside I know I am nearly finished painting.
It is snowing in Kyiv today. I have started another larger painting.